Yep its finally friday.
Had a half a day in school cause it was parent teacher conference. So I got out early and headed over the best friends soon to be ex crib since she’s moving. But the funny thing is the walk to her crib.
So I usually take a different route than the one I took today. But there was construction on the sidewalk. So while walking over I get a text from some guy I know. I turn around because it says “I seee you ;).”, so I’m looking like an idiot because Im just walking up and down the street looking for him. But it turns out he pasted me already in a car -__-. SO yes I made an ass out of myself for no reason.
Then while passing a park. Guys in a baseball field hit on me. I mean come on seriously the day I look crappy. You take notice of me. They do their usual flirting and I ignore them as usual ever since my haitus I barely notice them. So when they asked for my name I smiled and said if was meant to be known you would know wouldnt you, and kept on walking. The funniest thing was when my sisters friend called out to the guy trying to get my name and yelled out you are one ugly mother fucker! I was cracking up because 1. the guy was cursing out this 13 yr old girl 2. he just got insulted by a 13 yr old girl and 3. he was trying to flirt with some other girl and she walked away when that happened :D.
Then as usual I pigged out at the besties, ate a bunch of chocolate, tried to see how i looked like with blonde hair LOL, thought chris brown got way to ugly and smelled kimchee >_< it smelled like poop, no offense. Finally we ended it with a trip to Walgreens. A typical day with the bestie :).
Ohh Kay so I haven’t been on for how many years lol so why not start again.
Okay so everyday I think about my life. What I did, What I would’ve done, and what i want to do. I don’t do it purposely but it happens.Like today I was thinking about my exes. I was thinking about how I always settle. Maybe its insecurity, a false sense of safety… who knows? I sure don’t.
I also realized just how jealous I could be. I’m dealing with so many things, may not seem much to other people but it is to me. It really stressed me out to the point that I’ve started hating people for how much better then they were doing. But being jealous wasn’t going to do anything for me so i eventually got over that like how i got over the whole trend with suspenders.
Now I’m just focused on my love life which is going nowhere. Since most guys i know don’t wanna commit. But I’m done settling so I’m waiting for that one cute guy who’ll just wanna be with me. Yeah I know good luck to me. But what can I say? I’m a romantic when I’m not in a guy mood :P
okay so those were some realizations i came to this month. :)
Today was ….the same as always. Got home did homework and take a nap then go on fb. SAD. I was so used to having a boyfriend or a guy to flirt with but when I brought out the no sex rule and it was a whole new ball game. Im 16 not some desperate hag hoping to get some. SO is it too hard to have a guy who just wants hang out and a little intimacy without getting naked -__-. Guess it is. Don’t get me wrong I mean there are guys I talk to but if Im not attracted then there’s no luck, cause why would do intimacy with someone i just think of as a friend and nothing more. Like I said Im not settling.
SOH I gave up looking, their just gonna have to bump into me or try hard cause I’m done chasing :).Until then I’m sticking to my bananas and running. Well that’s all for now until i decide to rant some more. BAiii
You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
So, you believe in God?
Is God good?
My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is God good, then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
Is Satan good?
Where does Satan come from?
That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
So who created evil?
(Student didn't answer)
Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?
Tell us if you have ever heard your God.
Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?
No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Yet you still believe in Him?
According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
And is there such a thing as Cold?
No, sir, there isn't.
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There was a pin-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)
What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light... But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it's called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
So what is the point you are making, young man?
Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Flawed? Can you explain how?
Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.
Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)
Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The class was in uproar)
Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
(The class broke out into laughter)
Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?
(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)
I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
That student was Albert Einstein.
Oh kay!, so I go by Clarisa, Clarii and sometimes even Cleo. I'm 16. I'm 5'2" and nooo im not short just vertically challenged :P. I'm Puertorican, Venezuelan and Peruvian. :D But I don't really know spanish that well. Except for "Yo no habla espanol" and some other famous phrases. But I do know sign language :) (yesh it counts as a language, Google it!). I love music, fashion, and the people who mean the most to me. I'm obsessed with a singer named Royce and an actor/dancer Adam G. Sevani. Im single and live in brooklyn, New York. Im a newbie on tumblr but if you follow me I always follow back. Kay. Thanks for reading :)